Welcome to your safe haven, your yoga mat, where all forms of healing can occur.
Whether you’re currently healing or wanting to heal past pains, this is your invitation to step forward, soften into your grief, experience a soothing, gentle yoga practice, and let your light shine from within.
You might be shaking your head, thinking to yourself, girllll there is no damn light. There’s only a scary, all consuming darkness. Life has been unfair to me and there’s no hope for finding that light again.
But trust me, that light does exist. Yes, it might be buried under layers of pain, but it’s there, waiting to be uncovered and welcomed back into your life again.
Let me show you how.
I’ve had challenges with intimacy since losing my virginity.
The man who first entered my world wasn’t kind, took advantage of my tender soul, and treated me like an asset, not like a breathing, living person. I was his to use for pleasure, while he also used other women for pleasure too. He spoke down to me in an effort to manipulate my thoughts, made me feel less than, spread deep secrets that weren’t his to tell, and then trapped me under his watchful eye.
…. anyone else experience this too?
It was a toxic beginning to my story with intimacy, leading me to seek unimaginable amounts of attention from other men, thinking that only my body was worthy of love, and not the woman who resides inside.
This same experience continued to unfold for years to come, reaffirming each time that this was natural and normal. This is what love, romance, and intimacy felt like.
Of course, I now know this isn’t true, having been shown intimacy through years of being with my husband, but…..
These men and these experiences have left me scarred. I am not the first to initiate romance, I am not the first to spread my legs, I am not the first to surrender and let love overtake me.
I close up. I turn away. I try to put it off.
Luckily, I have a husband who loves my dearly and is willing to be patient, plus a backbone of knowledge from practicing yoga and studying the chakra system. But, there’s still work to do.
I’m only just beginning to learn the profound effects of how my younger years have impacted me and I’m also only just beginning to heal myself and the scars that have been left behind.
And hey, this might be where you are too, healing past pains and old wounds. Or, you might be in the thick of grief as you read this, kicking your way to the surface, barely holding your head afloat. Or, you might be unaware of your past pains and how they’ve implicated you. But whatever your story is, remember….
We’re all human beings having a human experience which means, there’s work here to do. Work to release past traumas, work to let go of tension, work to make amends with our past, and work to propel us forward.
It’s my goal to help you (and I) do just that through today’s yoga practice. This yoga practice isn’t the antidote to your grief, it won’t solve your problems, and it won’t be the solution to your healing. But it will be the catalyst for you to either begin or continue.
So come join me, breath with me, move with me, soften into your grief with me, and most importantly, invite your light to shine again with me.
I’ll meet you on your mat, ready to begin, ready to start again.